November 29 2025

KUBA: Hi Vineeto,

VINEETO: What is the point in bewailing “the addiction to ‘being’ i.e. suffering” when you can do something practical to diminish this addiction? You already know how ‘to get down to brass tacks’, as they say. (Actualism, Actualvineeto, Kuba12, 23 November 2025).

KUBA: Hehe yes I do know how to “get down to brass tacks” in fact I have used this practical knowledge recently to push into new territory, which is fabulous!
I will use Geoffrey’s below quote to explain what I have done:

RICHARD: I am full of admiration for the ‘me’ that dared to do such a thing. I owe all that I experience now to ‘me’. I salute ‘my’ audacity. (Richard’s Journal, Appendix 3, p. 282).

Geoffrey: Who is that ‘me’, if not humanity?

‘I’ am humanity. And as such, ‘my’ destiny can be achieved.

“Pleasant and wholesome” could become a refuge, a hiding place, for an individual ‘I’, a special ‘I’, fortified in dissociation from the dark soil of humanity by its acquired ‘actualist identity’.

If one is to be humanity, then nothing of humanity shall be foreign to one.

“The psyche is a frightful place” indeed.

What is it that Richard admires about ‘me’? Daring, and audacity. [Emphasis by Kuba].

A few days ago I realised that although I did a good job of exploring, investigating and diminishing the “human constitution” I nevertheless stopped each time right when the “lid was off” and ‘I’ was experienced where ‘I’ am forever threatened, where the core of ‘me’ as an instinctual ‘being’ is seen.

In fact what I see clearly now is that all the armchair philosophising and steeple chasing (anything but doing) was exactly that, a way to avoid seeing ‘myself’ were ‘I’ am forever threatened. And it’s actually quite impressive what efforts ‘I’ went to in order to prevent the bright light of awareness from being cast on the innermost recesses of ‘my’ being.
Well this clicked the other day, that I could not say “nothing of humanity is foreign to me” because I have not dared to look into ‘my’ very ‘being’. And of course how could I ever look to give up that which I have not even intimately experienced, and this is ‘me’ after-all.

VINEETO: Hi Kuba,

What a marvellous report. I find it fascinating that you were only able to venture into the further, frightful regions of the psyche after you had irrevocably abandoned “armchair philosophising and steeple chasing” as viable alternatives. Imagination can provide this “ethereal/ non-existent/ imagined target of projected perfection” as Felix so aptly called it (Actualvineeto, Felix, 28 November 2025), but in the long run genuinely and experientially being here and enjoying /appreciating this moment of being alive remains forever outside the territory of one’s imagination.

A genuine transition from the old spiritually-instilled ‘it’s-all-in-your-mind’ paradigm needs to be consciously abandoned to “get down to brass tacks”, in other words, to enter the down-to-earth wide and wondrous path. (I just thought I put in a plug for the first four words on the Actual Freedom homepage – actual, new, non-spiritual and down-to-earth. The tool tip next to the title gives more details).

KUBA: So I proceeded into the “frightful place” of the psyche haha, not as a “one and done” situation but with the intent on maintaining a fascinated attention, to explore every nook and cranny of the very depths of ‘my’ being. I thought to myself that I have been tasked with the job of painting the most realistic image of the depths of ‘my’ psyche.

I can certainly see why nerves of steel and daring are needed, at first it was as if I would go mad or collapse into an incoherent mess and yet once the storm calmed down somewhat I realised that 1 – These are passions and calentures not facts. 2 – These affective storms leave no emotional scars. In fact I found that after these deep explorations it would be as if someone just wiped a grimy window and now more freedom and more perfection and purity was shining through.

VINEETO: This is a very worthwhile observation for any daring pioneer –

“1 – These are passions and calentures not facts.
2 – These affective storms leave no emotional scars”.

One could call your present enterprise “grime-cide”, and when it gets out, there will be plenty of activists who will mount a fervent protest campaign. If you find this unlikely here is something Peter reported in 2000 –

Peter: … a recent television documentary provided me with yet another twist.

A pioneering medical development has meant that it is possible to implant a simple hearing amplifier in infants who are born deaf such that they can hear and speak normally without needing to learn sign language. This implant has to be done before the age of about two in order for effective communication skills to develop normally. This medical procedure has been opposed by many in the deaf community with some even stridently accusing the doctors of genocide. The ‘genocide’ they see is the deliberate wiping out of the deaf community – as in eventual extinction. Their counter argument, offered as a concession, is that the procedure should not be done without the child’s consent. The problem with this is that the procedure needs to be done at an early age, prior to the development stage of communication skills in order for the child to develop without a handicap in speech and comprehension. This is not a moral or ethical objection but the deep-seated fear of a community or group feeling as though it is facing extinction.

After the documentary, I was left befuddled at how deep the instinctual passions survival run. (Actualism, Peter, Actual Freedom List, Gary-e, 12.12.2000).

Joking aside, keep in mind that you are not fighting or coercing your psyche but bringing about a cheerful and willing concurrence to ‘your’ long-yearned-for oblivion.

KUBA: So I have succeeded where I failed time and time again in the past, I have stepped forward exactly where I would usually turn around. And I know from direct experience now that it is safe to proceed.

Since daring to experience the “frightful place of the psyche” I have found myself more and more in this wondrous “no man’s land”, it is not Terra Actualis but it is certainly not reality anymore. And I find myself in this wondrous place without the affective storms getting in the way, or when they do come up they become just another opportunity for ‘me’ to be seen even clearer.

VINEETO: This is simply amazing, wonderful, mirificent – I am grinning from ear to ear with delight at your success.

I remember Pamela describing this period as being better than her 5-months PCE –

Vineeto: In fact, in her period of being out-from-control Pamela commented on how much better this experience (of being out-from-control) was than her 5-months PCE and she explained that her PCE was a static experience while being out-from-control was exemplified by the progress of coming closer and closer to the actual world.

I could not agree more. (Direct Route, Vineeto to James, 14 January 2010).

Cheers Vineeto